the wizard of Oz

Hi, my name is: Viacely
Never in my life have I been: in love.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: terrible drivers.
High school: Meryknoll School of Guatemala
When I’m nervous:  I giggle!
The last song I listened to was: Do you remember by Jack Johnson
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: sindy.
My hair is: two colors, or more.
When I was 5: I was friends with my brother
Last Christmas: I spent it with my grandparrents, gaah
I should be..:  doing anything but this.
When I look down I see:  my beautiful blue shoes.
The happiest recent event was: this thing... :)
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: probably, chandler.
By this time next year: I will be in my 3er year in college.
My current gripe is: i dont know what gripe means.
I have a hard time understanding: people.
You know I like you when: I am quite indifferent towards you, lol
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: mom
Take my advice: read Chuck Palahniuk, it changes your life
The thing I want to buy: a new leader-looking jacket
If you visited the place I was born: I live there
I plan to visit: new jersey
If you spent the night at my house: we'd probably never sleep, we would talk all night :)
I’d stop my wedding if: i didnt feel pretty.
The world could do without: a few people >.<
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: nothing, I would rather die than do that
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: a hella lotta shots
Most recent thing someone else bought me: hum, candy
My favorite blonde is: Kitty
My favorite brunette is: Gigi
My favorite black hair is: sindy
My middle name is: I don't have one
In the morning I: am very moody
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: elephants
Last night I was: asleep
There’s this guy I know who: has a few cool tats
If I was an animal I’d be: a lion
A better name for me would be: I don't know, you tell me
Tomorrow I am: hanging with sum friends and saying hi to you :)
Tonight I am: sleeping like a baby
My birthday is: October 27th

q.

Start at the very beginning, what’s your name? 
Viacely, but people usually call me Via

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?  

Most jeans I wear are skinny.

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do? 
I would go around listening what people have to say about me, ha

Does the person you like, like you back? 
I hope so :)

What did you do last night? 
watch sum mtv.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies? 
of course

Are you your mum’s favorite child? 
No, I get along better with her, but she always preffers my brother.

Are you happy with the way things are going? 
you know..

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night? 
Not really.

Sleep on your back or stomach? 
side, in a ball

What were you doing before this survey? 
on the phone with sindy.

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? 
haha, yeah, I know what that means, yeah

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night? 
like an hour or so.

It’s Thursday night, where are you usually? 
prolly home.

Your Christmas list consists of? 
i don’t know yet.

What movie is in your DVD player? 
Hum, I think hang over is.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move? 
Toronto, Canada

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? 
I slept over 5 hours in the afternoon. ?

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? 
Always

What’s going on tomorrow night? 
i have no clue.

Do you know a lot of people with the same phone as you?  

Many.

Is your hair curly or straight right now? 
wavy

What do you really think of Starbucks Coffee? 
sure.

Does anyone love you? 
what kind of question is that!

Want to be taller or shorter? 
I'd like to be a bit taller, but Idk, I'm okay with my height.

What are you listening to? 
mtv.

When was the last time you really laughed? 
earlier.

Do you listen to music every day? 
always.

Last song you heard? 
Jack Johnson- Do you remember

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female? 
female

What’s the last thing you said out loud? 
I don't remember.

How was your day? 
boring.

Describe how you feel right now in three words: 
bored, tired, whatever

If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? 
something exciting to happen.

Has a girl sat on your bed before? 
yeah!

Plans for Saturday? 
i dont know

Who was the last person besides yourself to touch something on your face? 
Idk.

What was your dream about last night? 
I don't remember.

Do you have a reason to smile right now? 
I'm alive.

Where were you at 9 am this morning? 
school

Everything happens for a reason? 
I am not a believer.

Are you too forgiving? 
hmm, not really

Do you think people talk about you? 
people ALWAYS talk shit

What do you carry with you at all time? 
phone.

Do you and your parents get along? 
yeah, most of the time.

This time last year, were you single?
mhm.

Have you ever been searched by the cops? no.

Do you always wear your seat belt? 
always! and i always get everyone to put theres on.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate? 
I'm not sure they hate him, but our crews don't get along.

Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? 
yeah!!

Ever sang a whole song without missing any lyrics? 
yeah

Has someone close to you ever told you they were going to commit suicide because of you? 
no, thank god.

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year? 
change is inevitable.

Do you care if people talk badly about you? depends.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? 
it depends

Where were you at 10:17 pm last night and what were you doing? 
sitting in my bed, typing.

Other than this, what are you doing? 
mtv is on, msn.

Were you happy when you woke up today? 
sure.

Who did you last get into a big argument with? 
i cant remember, probably mom, no deff mom.

Last thing you ate? 
home made pizza.

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?  

sleeping, getting tattooed, reading a new book, idk.

Are you a morning person or a night person? 
night

Has anyone sang to you? 
lol, yeah (:

How often do you lose your voice? 

never really have!

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your under wear in the past 3 months? 
mhm, no boys tho.

Be honest, do you like people in general?
not like them, but don't dislike them either.

Does anybody hate you? 
i guess so, i dont hate anyone tho!

Is there something you’re looking forward to next month? 
sure.

Does it bother you when people get drunk? 
it depends, if they leave me alone as the one sober person, or do things that are too annoying.

Are you mad at someone right now? 
nah

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking? 
not often.

Will tomorrow be a good day? 
I hope.

Do you like hugs and kisses? 
:) who doesnt

What’s on your bed?

pillows, notebooks, make up, me...

Last person on your bed? 
wini, carol & lexi.

Mykonos

"I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all and that doesn’t mean there’s not gonna be hard days or difficult things to deal with, because there will be. But finding that person who does it for you & knowing that person loves you back, it just makes everything so much easier."

Fightless bird

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it(anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

I fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)

I want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
 

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
 I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings

IDGAF, really?

I am sitting in my bed, my pajamas are on, and it's really not late at all,

but I just got home from a shoot in which I portrayed a girl with cancer, you'll be able to check it out once it's finished,

but when I got home, I just felt like I needed a shower, so I got one :)

 I don't really have any idea of what to write about, but I just felt like writting.

Not to let someone know what I'm thinking, because I am not thinking of something specific atm.

And mostly because I know no one ever reads the things I post :)

but it's okay, I write because that's what I know how to get things out of my head.

I am supposed to be studying for this test, but ever since I was a child I wasn't that much into studying,

I figured I learned more easily by just listening and paying atention, I am better at remembering this things from the teacher's mouth or something.

Feeling tired and a little bored, and sitting in my bed makes it more tempting to just lay and take a nap,

and I am not that much into facebook today...

I realized I type a lot of I's.just saying!

Last night I was talking to my mom after watching Home & Healt, a show about really weird cases that should have end up in death, but didn't.

pretty cool, you should deffintly check that out, but anyway,

I was like talking a lot, my mom and I we talk about almost everything, I don't know she's pretty easy to talk to, I guess,

and mainly because she doesn't judge me.

Well, I was talking about this guy in one of my classes who I thought had something really attractive to him but I really don't know what that is, because, to be honest and not mean, I don't think he's that good looking, or smart, or interesting, I don't even know why I like him, and that frustrates me, because I feel that my hormons like him better than my brain, haha.

Well, I remembered he was in high school with my brother (go figure!) so we came up with a plan to get my brother's year book just to look at pictures of him, so my mom could check him out, or something, lol.

Well when we finally found him my mom was like 'FUCK', for real!

she said the word out loud, and gave me this disapointing look, but when she realized what she had done, she just said 'not everyone has the same taste, you know?' but it was al ready too late,

I don't know why, but I really give a big fuck for what she thinks...

and now I'm even more confused, because I feel like I really don't like him,

but I'm not sure if I don't like him, or if I don't think I like him, because she doesn't like him.

what to do, huh?

 

got bruises on my knees for you.

Yesterday i came home really late, and didn't feel like going to school in the morning,

not that I had any class or anything, just that I could have helped some friends with a project, to which I felt I had already done too much.

I woke up around 7 today 'cause I needed to go to the bathroom and then I forced myself to sleep again, after watching some tv and reading a few chapters of Jodi Picoult's book The Pact. 

I woke up again around 10 and showered, got all dressed and stuff. Since I had nothing left to do, I went back to sleep around one in the afternoon, I forced myself to sleep, and woke up around 6:30 ish, it was al ready dark.

I felt sick, I don't know why. I felt lonely again, I hate feeling that way.

I guess I'm used to blocking away my feelings with crowded rooms filled with noises, laughter and so called friends to fill the empty spaces of solitude. but being asleep and alone, that gives you the time to really think things through,

and when the phone doesn't ring, I don't know how it manage to do that, but it hurts you, deep inside.

and when no body cares, you feel alone. I do.

And now the screen is sort of blurry, and I don't know what else to type about,

because the blocking-things becomes a habbit, and habits are hard to break.

 

would you teach me how to feel?

Today for the first time in the past year,

my heart didn't pond against my chest like a hummingbirds'

and I starred at you,

but you didn't look back.

I saw you walking out, and I felt like walking up to you

and saying something,

but my legs froze,

and my brain couldn't think of anything smart to say,

so I just watched you walk right in front of me with your camera in your neck.

And I only write this because I know you're never going to read it.

I guess that means I like you or something.

Vámonos patria a caminar

Vámonos patria a caminar, yo te acompaño
Yo bajare los abismos que me digas.
Yo beberé tus cálices amargos.
Yo me quedare ciego para que tengas ojos.
Yo me quedare sin voz para que tu cantes.
Yo he de morir para que tu no mueras,
para que emerja tu rostro flameando al horizonte
de cada flor que nazca de mis huesos.

Tiene que ser así, indiscutiblemente.
Ya me canse de llevar tus lagrimas conmigo.
Ahora quiero caminar contigo, relampagueante.
Acompañante en tu jornada, porque soy un hombre
del pueblo, nacido en octubre para la faz del mundo.
Ay, patria.
A los coroneles que orinan tus muros
tenemos que arrancarlos de raíces,
colgarlos de un árbol de rocío agudo,
violento de cóleras de pueblo.
Por ello pido que caminemos juntos. Siempre
con los campesinos agrarios
y los obreros sindicales,
con el que tenga un corazón para quererte.

Vámonos patria a caminar, yo te acompaño.

OTTO RENÉ CASTILLO.

Making a choice...

I'm in my sophomore year of college, comunication studies it is,

when I was in my senior year my parrents didn't want me to pursue my dream, not that they didn't want me to be happy, but they wanted me to have an stable future.

I couldn't find an schollarship to study in Canada or US (where I wanted to go) for film school.

After that I started looking for something to please me between my meads, I thought of graphic design, but my parrents talked me out of it to go to law school, which made me unhappy, I cried and I transferred to comunication studies after seeing a flyer of the school of some kids with a bunch of cameras, and after reading it, I found it suit me perfectly, it had photography curses, visual discurses (my favorite tbh), radio (that was okay, I guess) and philosophy, psicology and other things that interested me.

Well, this isn't just about how choosing what makes me happy is actually working for my advantage, I'm having fun, knowing a whole bunch of cool people, and doing things that I actually care for.

In the next couple of weeks I'm shooting my first short film, well, it's actually a group thing, but I wrote the script and I'm kind of directing it. For which I am extremelly excited, I would probably spend my whole weekend on it, and won't have time to do anything but it. 

And here is where making a choice comes in...

On the weekend of the 25th, a group of peole who helps poor people building homes for themselves is going to a community for the whole weekend, and I was planning on going, you know, for not just complaining but actually making something about it, but since my shoot is on the same date, I don't know what to do.

I could make my crew shoot some other time, but it might interrupt every day on the calendar and make it a whole lot worst for all of us,

or I could go building houses some other time...

what to dooo?

gahhh

cherry bomb

I want to change things
I want to make things better,
not just for me and my loved one,
but for everyone,
even the people I don't like very much.

The pouring rain woke me up,

and I realized I was five and sitting in my rooftop

and the superman cape would not make me fly.