Day 24 - 25

Something that makes you cry

Pretty much, any kind of sad movie. I cry over stupid feelings and stuff :)

but yeah, here's a list of movies I've cried over:

A walk to remember, when Jamie dies and that guy is left alone :'(

My sister's keeper, I started crying like 15 seconds into the movie, lol

Lion King, when Mufasa died

pretty much, anything that makes me sad.

A first.

Well, I don't know what a first could be. My first piercing (that I remember of) I got it done in my living room when I was 13.

My first neck tattoo I got it done this past july, was a whole new experience, a lovely one.

Day 23

Something that makes you feel better

Hum, pretty much any kind of gesture of love, morning texts, midnight calls, hugs, things that make me feel a bit special or something :) 

 

you eat, you’re fat. you don’t eat, you’re a freak. you drink, you’re an alcoholic. you don’t drink, you’re a pussy. you read, you’re a nerd. you don’t read, you’re stupid. you tell a secret, you’re an attention seeker. you don’t tell a secret, you’re still attention seeking. you let someone in, you’re easy. you don’t let someone in, you’re too uptight. you smoke, you think you’re cool. you don’t smoke, you’re a loser. you’ve had sex, you’re a slut. you haven’t had sex, you’re a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you’re a slag. you don’t wear make up, you’re ugly. you can’t please anyone. ever.

Sometimes we're just broken, even if we don't know why.x

Day 22

Something that upsets you

Currently, everything upsets me.

I can't stand myself lately, I just can't deal with anything anymore, the only way I can stand living and stuff is listening to freaking loud music just to tune out the rest of the world. That upsets me. 

"I have an addictive and obsessive personality. That is, if I like "like" something, I don't just like it. I immerse myself in it so deep that I get sick of it. Because I'm also afraid of commitment and abandonment. The sooner I get over it, the less likely it is I can lose it, leave it - the less likely it can hurt me."

My dearest, 

I've missed you very, very much since that last night we were together. And I'll hold that night especially in my memories for years to come. I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately. I've read your letter through at least four times, and will probably read it more times before I'm through. I've been sitting here, looking at your picture, and getting more homesick every minute. I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of, except of course, you yourself. I keep thinking of you darling. I keep wishing I could be home with you. I want to leave in the worst possible way so I can come home to see you, but, things don't look so good on that subject. And this war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess. I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now. I'm completely lost with out you darling. I never realized I could miss any one person so much. I just hope it won't be too much longer until I am able to be with you again, and live a sane and normal life.

-Violence, Blink 182

Meet me in Montauk

Maybe your first love is the one that sticks with you because it's the only person who will ever receive all of you. after that, you learn better. But, most of all, no matter what, a piece of you forever remains left behind in the heart of the one you loved - a piece no future lover could ever get, no matter what. That piece holds innocence, the belief that love really can last forever. It holds friendship, and pain, trial and error, that one kiss you'll never forget, and that night under the stars you can never get back. It holds youth and everything you thought love would be, everything that was proven wrong.

- anonymous

We all carry these things inside that no one else can see. They hold us down like anchors, they drown us at see.

Bring Me The Horizon.

you should see the things I do to you in my dreams.x

Day 20 - 21

This month

 It's October, and it's my birthday on the 27th, which I'm hoping not to come, seems so dull to be 20. Gaah.

But it's been kinda fun because I've been going out must weekends with my friends Sindy, Mike & Marlen.

Another moment

There hasn't been any special moments yet, or anything like that.

“Sex is a part of love. You shouldn’t go around doing it unless you are in love.”

—

Bettie Page (1923-2008)