I WONDER WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO KISS YOU.

#but that's a secret.

arenita

You get a text at 4AM saying “come outside.” What do you do?
it actually depends on who the text is fromWhen was the last time you were scared?
hum, I don't remember
Have you changed at all in the past three months?
i guess so?
Is anyone mad at you right now?
I don't know
Plans for tomorrow?
family is comming over for me & my brother's birthday
Are you a heavy sleeper?
oh yes
Do you like the town you are living in?
sure
Someone says to you now, ‘lets go to a party and get drunk!’ you say?
I'd ask a lot of details and prolly go
Have you smoked a cigarette today?
I don't smoke
So what do you want for christmas?
xmas is months away, I don't even want to think
How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
Um, prolly like 7

 Have you ever kissed anyone with a tongue ring?
nope :)
Can you cross your eyes? 
yupppp
Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
oh yeah, it sucks
Have you ever tripped over a parking thingy?
erm not that i can think of?
What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today?
I hung out with some old high school friends
Does it bother you when someone hides things from you?
yes, i doooo!
Are you a morning person or a night person?
nighttt
Is it bad to be a forgiving person?
It depends, I guess
How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
I don't drink
Last thing to truly upset you?
this conversation about this kid I have a thing for
Do you swallow gum when you’re done with it?
ew, nope. It stays in your tummy for at least 7 days!
Last person to upset you?
no one really

Day 30

One last moment

Well yeah, this is the moment that has been going through my head since last friday (gosh, a week)

I've even asked other boys what it means, and yeah I'm hoplessly inlove with it.

I went to your party, and you kissed my forehead.

that! there I said it :D

Someday I'm going to regreat this, won't I?

yupp.

—-your boy side—-
you love hoodies.
you love jeans.
dogs are better than cats.
it’s hilarious when people get hurt.
shopping is torture.
sad movies suck.
you own a car racing game.
you played with hot wheels cars as a kid.
at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
you used to be obsessed with power rangers.
you have watched sports on tv.
gory movies are cool.
you go to your dad for advice.
you own like a trillion baseball caps.
you used to collect hockey cards.
baggy sweats are cool to wear.
it’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors or all.
you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
sports are fun.
you talk with food in your mouth.
you sleep with your socks on at night.
you have fished at least once.

—-your girl side—-
you love to shop.
you wear eyeliner.
you wear the color pink.
you go to your mom to talk.
you consider cheerleading a sport.
you hate wearing the color black.
you like going to the mall.
you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
you like wearing jewelry.
you cried watching the notebook.
skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
you don’t like the movie star wars.
you are/were in gymnastics.
it takes you at least one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
you smile a lot more than you should.
you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
you care about what you look like.
you like wearing dresses when you can.
you like wearing high heel shoes.
you used to play with dolls as little kid.
you like putting make-up on others.
you like being the star of everything.
pink is one of your favorite colors.

—appearance—
i am shorter than 5’2
i have a scar
i tan/burn easily
i wish my hair was a different color.
i have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
i have a tattoo.
i am self-conscious about my appearance.
i’ve had/have braces. 
i’ve been told i’m attractive by a complete stranger.
i have more than two piercings.
i have / had piercings in places besides my ears.

—embarrassment—
i’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
disney movies still make me cry.
i’ve laughed so hard i’ve cried.
i’ve glued my hand to something.
i’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
i’ve had my pants rip in public.

—health—
i’ve gotten stitches.
i’ve had my appendix removed.
i’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
i’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
i’ve had serious surgery.
i’ve had chicken pox.

—experiences—
i’ve gotten lost in my city.
i’ve seen a shooting star.
i’ve wished on a shooting star.
i’ve seen a meteor shower.
i’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
i’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
i’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
i’ve been to a casino.
i’ve been skydiving.
i’ve gone skinny-dipping.
i’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
i’ve crashed/rolled a car .
i’ve been skiing.
i’ve been in a musical.
i’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
i’ve seen the northern lights.
i’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
i’ve played a prank on someone.
i’ve ridden in a taxi.
i’ve seen the rocky horror picture show.
i’ve eaten sushi.
i’ve been snowboarding.

—relationships—
i’m single.
i’m in a relationship.
i’m engaged.
i’m married.
i miss someone right now.
i’ve gotten divorced.
i’ve told someone i loved them when i didn’t.
i’ve told someone i didn’t love them when i did.

—honesty / crime—
i’ve done something i promised someone else i wouldn’t.
i’ve done something i promised myself i wouldn’t.
i’ve snuck out.
i’ve lied to my parents about where i am.
i’ve cheated while playing a game.
i’ve ran a red light
i’ve been in a fist fight.
i’ve been arrested.

—death and suicide—
i’m afraid of dying.
i hate funerals.
i’ve seen someone / something dying.
someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.
you have planned your own suicide.
i’ve written a eulogy for myself.

—materialism—
i own over 5 rap cd’s.
i have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.
i own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
i own something from pac sun.
i own something from the gap.
i own something i got on e-bay.
i own something from abercrombie.

—random—
i can sing well.
stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
open up to others easily.
i watch the news.
i don’t kill bugs.
i sing in the shower.
i am a morning person.
i paid for my cell phone ring tone.
i am a sports fanatic.
i twirl my hair.
i care about grammar.
i have “?”’s in my screen name.
i love spam.
i’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
i bake well.
my favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
i would wear pajamas to school.
i like martha stewart.
i know how to shoot a gun.
i am guilty of typing LiKe tHiS.
i laugh at my own jokes.
i eat fast food weekly.
i’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
i can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
i am really ticklish.
i like white chocolate.
i bite my nails.
i’m good at remembering faces.
i’m good at remembering names.
i’m good at remembering dates.
i honestly have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

Day 29

 Your aspirations

I don't think having any kind of expectations is okay, because it leads to hoping, which always ends with a broken heart.

But I'd like to make an indie movie that will show up in the sundance.

I'd like to fall in love, and live happily ever after.

Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you.

 

-Anonymous

coin.x

“ When faced with two choices, simply toss a coin. It works not because it settles the question for you, but because, in that brief moment when the coin is in the air, you suddenly know what you are hoping for. ”

Day 28

Something that you miss

Oh God, I miss a whole bunch of things, but I'll start with this:
I miss high school at times, I miss moments with my classmates and gossip with my bffs. 
I miss being young and feeling like I had everything ahead of me.
I miss hesitating about my future, not even knowing what to do with my college stuff.
I miss having friends and talking to strangers without thinking too much of the consequences.
I miss feeling invicible, and that nothing bad could happen, "those things happen to other people, not me" kinda way
I miss liking people, I miss my youth and the parts of it that I missed out on.

I think I like you in a 'I wanna be alone in a dark place with you' kinda way 

secret.

I know I haven't post much of me lately, I mean, not things that I've written, but lately I just don't know what to write anymore. I am scarred of my thoughts and my feelings ashame me.

Lately, really loud hardcore music is the only thing that can keep my thoughts from catching up to me, that can tune the world out, and keep my feelings shut.

But I think I'm a bit better now, and I'm not in love with the world, but I'm at peace with it.

And that's okay, for now.

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Here are some thought that been running around my head for the past few days, I've been thinking of sweet things the perfect boy could do :)

it's okay to dream, right?

Well here is the list:

-he'd show up out of nowhere at random places at randome times just to see me 

-he'd call me at 3am just to ask what I'm doing

-Would burn me mix cds with music he's currently into

-would call just to say "hey, I miss you" and hung up

-would kiss my forehead for no aparent reason

-would play/sing songs to me :)

-would send random texts with random things, ha

-would come over just to watch movies

-would look for french movies to watch with me

-we'd stay in bed all day

-would hug me when I'm cold

I don't know, that's it for now... I guess