YER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Viacely
Birth Date: October 27th
Current Location: Bed
Hair Color: Light brown
Righty/Lefty: Righty
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: Roaches and dying alone
Your dream of the perfect date: Some quiet place where you could actually have a deep conversation.
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: Is it 5 am already?
Your best physical feature: Eyes
Your bed time: When I start getting really tired
Your most missed memory: There’s too many :)
LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald’s or Burger King: Mc fries, and bk burgers
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: either one is good
LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: No
Cuss: Aha yee
Take showers: Yes
Have a crush: Of course <3
Like school: yes, a lot
Believe in yourself: Yeah
Believe what goes around comes around: I believe it to be more of a consequence to the life you leave than some power that makes justice.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Naah
Think you’re a health freak: naah
LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yeh
Been on stage: Once, 8th grade
Eaten sushi: Mhmm
Been hurt: Yeh
Dyed your hair: too many times.
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: naah
Kissed the same sex: no
Got beaten up: no...
Changed who you were to fit in: Probably
LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: Whenever it happens :D
Number of kids you’re planning on having: I dunoo
LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Green
Short or long hair: Medium
Fat or fit: Fit
Looks or personality: Both
Fun or serious: depends on the situation, but if you can make me laugh, you have my heart
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: This
1 HOUR AGO: Hw
1 WEEK AGO: I don't remember
1 YEAR AGO: same thing.
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I feel: weak
I hate: roaches
I hide: Secrets
LAYER 12: FAVORITES.
Band: Fall Out Boy
Color: Grey
Food Chinese
LAYER 13: RANDOM.
How long have you known your best friend?: for the past 5 years
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: n/a
What’s your middle name?: I don't have one
What are you excited for?: nothing really
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: yeah
What’s something random about you?: I love my iPod more than anyone else on earth.

Beliefs

This is a sumary of what I believe in or some sort of spiritual opinion

I was raiced catholic, but I was also thought to understand for myself

I am a believer in Jesus' phylosophy, but not a big fan of the church

I apply the buddhism believe on karma, but more of a consecuence to the acts and the way I live.

Friedrich Nietzsche is a big influence, also Jean Paul Sartre,

And deffintly Jesse Lacey.

Agnostic thoughts also cross my mind every now and then.

I wrote a note on tumblr the other day and that inspired me into writting about my beliefs,

here it is.

But how do you know what’s real and what’s not when the whole world is inside your head?

One day you fall for this boy. And he touches you with his fingers. And he burns holes in your skin with his mouth. And it hurts when you look at him. And it hurts when you don’t. And it feels like someone’s cut you open with a jagged piece of glass.

 

 

— The Tracey Fragments

 

Guernica

Ever since I was young your word is the word that always won.
Worry and wake the ones you love.
A phone call I’d rather not receive.
Please use my body while I sleep.
My lungs are fresh and yours to keep,
Kept clean and they will let you breathe.

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I’m asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I’m not writing my goodbyes.

I submit no excuse.
If this is what I have to do I owe you every day I wake.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.

Is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry?
I am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind.

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I’m asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I’m not writing my goodbyes.

I’m not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I’m there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you’re sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?

Nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these,
so I sat alone and waited out the night.
The best part of what has happened was the part I must have missed.
So I’m asking you to shine it on and stick around.
I’m not writing my goodbyes.

This song was written by Jesse Lacey after the death of his grandfather, it always makes me feel emotional. And I am true believer that he is the best writter and most intelligent person on earth.

 

oli.

ha

HANDS DOWN, THE BEST LOOKING GUY ON EARTH

luca q.

This is seriously going to get personal. You ready?
bring it on!

The last time you felt honestly broken?

I usually feel that way when I'm alone with myself and I'm able to think too much

Are you a morning person or a night person?
night, I'm moody in the morning

Are any of the texts in your inbox locked? Why?
Well, I locked one because it was an adress and I didn't want my phone to delete it when the inbox got full

What was the last drink you had?
water while driving back home

How long can you go without your phone?
not long, but whenever I'm in my house I lose it a lot

Do you have a bad temper?                                                                                              

very much so!, not too often, but when i am angry, i get very angry!

Do you believe that there’s good in everybody?
I'd like to think so, but I'm not sure

What are you drinking right now?
nothing!

What colour are your eyes?
hazel, but under the sun they look yellowish

Do you wear your seat belt in the car?
yeah, all the time, and I even make people wear it when they're with me :)

What woke you up this morning?
My mom woke me up around 9

In the past week, have you cried?
mhhm

Do you have a little sister?
no, just one older brother

Have you ever broken anything because you were mad?
my phone, I threw it against a wall and broke the screen :)

Want something you can’t have?
always!!!!!!

Do you have a secret that you’ve never told ANYONE?
i dont thinkso, no!

Miss anything from your past?
I miss a few things from the past year...

Be honest, do you have feelings towards anyone?
i think some may be forming, but too early to tell :)

If someone gave you $1,000 would you spend it or save it?
spend it, on clothes and stuff

Ever worn something of the opposite sex’s clothing?
so much, tee’s, and hoodies

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

i can pretty much tell diego anything in the world, he is one of my favourite people to confide in <3

Are you scared of spiders?
not really, but of roaches, yes i am!

What radio station(s) do you listen to?
I don’t listen to the radio, it fucking sucks

Are you listening to music right now?
yes, br&new is on "Good to know if I ever need atention all I have to do is die"

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
neither, forgive tho, forgetting is impossible.

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
yeah, I always wake up crying or something

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
i have, not intentionally though

Do you like when people call you things like “baby”, “sweetie”, “hun”, etc
naah, I like more original pet names, this ones are gay

What’s wrong with you right now?
Now that you asked, this guys I just can't seem to get him off my mind :/

When will your next kiss be?
when will my first kiss be!? that is a good question...

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
of course, all my guy friends mean a lot to me

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
naah, I'm not sure, but I would like to tell someone some things just to get them off my chest

What’s your favorite color?
grey and light blue, 

Is anyone protective of you?
my friends!

Been told you’re loved today?
no :(

Whats the plan for the weekend?
not sure, maybe hanghing out with mah girls!

Ready for questions that will invade every aspect of your life?
haha go on..

How was your day?
pretty tired, I had to drive for hours for my mom

Do you miss someone?
not really!

Has someone ever punched you in the face?
em no

Have you ever punched someone in the face?
probably not

Have you lost someone you love?
depends how lost is defined

Do you care about anyone?
family & friends

Has someone ever told you they are scared/worried for you?
no!

An ugly girl hits on you, what do you do?

tell her, i am flattered, but i like boys:) or probably giggle lots and smile.

Are you a gentleman/lady-like?
yes, if you are someone to be respected most likely yeah

Last person who told you things were going to be okay?
can’t remember

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?
theres always gonna be people!

Do people you don’t know hate you?
probably, last of my worries though, because they arent worth knowing, because they’ve judged, without knowing me!

Do you drink water?
i do

Have you run away from something because you didn’t know how to deal with it?
yes, this is a big trait for me!

Is there something you’re not happy about at the moment?
yes, I don't know fsdfdfrqwsdfsdfqrfasd gaah

Do you and your friends have the same taste in music?
not many of them, but i always have an artist in common that i like with everyone!

Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
yes

Is anything wrong?
not really!, just frustrated

Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?
I wouldn't like it :S

Have you ever been so hurt that you wanted to stop feeling completely?
yeah, 

What’s more important, trust or happiness?
no point in trust if your not happy! but without trust, you probably wont be happy.

It’s 4 o’clock in the morning, your phone rings, what do you do?
pick it up

Is there someone you will never forget?
yes<3

At the beginning of the summer, who were you in a relationship with?
single

Did you have a person who changed your life and left?
yes, and that changed my life all over again

Can you handle pain?
yes, im a tough cookie ha

Could you go the rest of your life without doing any drugs?
yes, I have been my whole life without drugs

Be honest, do you like people in general?
I guess

To be loved, what more could you ask for?

noah's last letter

". I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you" 

noah

s45mile!

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they love you.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies. (And eating the chocolate chips while doing it.)
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think

your heart

And your heart..
Your heart is what amazes me,
it’s something I wonder if even a god could create.
Your love is what man works their entire life to find.
It’s the kind of thing you could lean the world on.
I guess what I’m trying to say is,
I love every inch of your existence.

tenty dollar bill

My skin is like a map, of where my heart has been and I can’t hide the marks, but it’s not a negative thing, there’s a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree.
Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you.
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you.

in love with the idea of love

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

And I keep finding this things that really turn me up inside

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it’s cracked up to be. That’s why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is… if you don’t risk everything, you risk even more.

life 101

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken and you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

 

12821.)

im in love with you, and i want to break you and your girlfriend up so i can have you to myself.

 

l o v e

1. With love, the impossible becomes possible.
2. Love is the only universal language. It requires no words to understand.
3. Just before we die, nothing else matters in this world, except love.
4. Love and happiness go hand in hand.
5. Hate makes you blind, while love makes you see.
6. Love and hate are opposites. If people say love is the most important thing in the world, then what is hate?
7. Love gives life and hate destroys it.
8. You can never destroy the ones you love, only the ones you hate. So the only way to avoid destruction is to love.
9. Love is the only water that can quench the heart’s thirst.
10. E=MC² (the energy of love equals the amount of love or mass times the speed of light squared)
11. Love needs to display all its entire splendor, like a peacock, before it can be appreciated.
12. With love, words are not enough; it must be followed by loving actions.
13. I am painting the most important thing in this world love.
14. There is no true love between neighbors, until war becomes peace.
15. Love is a hole in the heart that needs a lifetime to fill.
16. Love is the inner sun, which keeps you warm and alive.
17. Love knows no colors.
18. The light of this world is pure love.
19. Open up your heart, and you will open up your mind.
20. Love answers to no one, except love.
21. Love to Live. Live to Love.

my favorite four letter word

"It’s a fucked up world A fucked up place Everybody’s judged by their fucked up face
Fucked up dreams Fucked up life A fucked up kid With a fucked up knife
Fucked up moms And fucked up dads It’s a fucked up a cop With a fucked up badge
Fucked up job With fucked up pay And a fucked up bossIs a fucked up pain
Fucked up press And fucked up lies."

wolfpack

"How bout that ride in. I guess that’s why they call it sin city. Ha ha ha. You guys might not know this but I consider myself a bit of a loner. I tend to think of myself as a one man wolfpack. But when my sister brought Doug home I knew he was one of my own. And my wolfpack, it grew by one. So there were two of us in the wolfpack. I was alone first in the pack and then Doug joined in later. And 6 months ago, when Doug introduced me to you guys I thought, wait a second, could it be. And now I know for sure that I just added two guys to my wolfpack. Four of us wolves, running around the desert together in Las Vegas looking for strippers and cocaine. So tonight, I make a toast." 

Alan from the Hangover.

a14443691052may

I want someone to be around to make all my choices for me. Tell me what’s wrong and what’s right. Tell me when I’m about to screw up. Tell me what I want to do in the future. To know me well enough to be spot on when they tell me these things. Someone that knows everything about me and doesn’t care how screwed up I am. Someone that can fix my mistakes. Someone that will always be there when I need them. Someone that actually loves me.

 

 

a-z

A - Age: 19
B - Bed size: full
C - Chore you hate: cleaning, i hate it!
D - Dog’s name: don't own a dog, but a bunny named Donnie
E - Essential start your day item: bath, iDock, clothes
F - Favorite colors: grey and light blue
G - Gold or Silver: silver

H - Height: 5”3'
I - Instruments you play: bass

J - Job title: student

K – Kids: not for the moment!

L - Living Arrangements: in my family home.

M - Mother’s name: Viacely
N - Nicknames: via, and a few variations of my name.

O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: never

Q - Quote from a movie: "just because she likes the same bizarre crap you do, doesn't mean she's your soulmate"

R - Right or left handed: Righty
S - Siblings: one older brother.

T - Time you wake up: around 5:15
U - Underwear:you know...

V - Vegetable you dislike: white onion

W - Workout style: I go to the gym every afternoon

X - X-rays you’ve had: mouth and arm

Y - Yesterday’s best moment:. dunno

Z - Zoo favorite:tiggers and lions

the wizard of Oz

Hi, my name is: Viacely
Never in my life have I been: in love.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: terrible drivers.
High school: Meryknoll School of Guatemala
When I’m nervous:  I giggle!
The last song I listened to was: Do you remember by Jack Johnson
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: sindy.
My hair is: two colors, or more.
When I was 5: I was friends with my brother
Last Christmas: I spent it with my grandparrents, gaah
I should be..:  doing anything but this.
When I look down I see:  my beautiful blue shoes.
The happiest recent event was: this thing... :)
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ I’d be: probably, chandler.
By this time next year: I will be in my 3er year in college.
My current gripe is: i dont know what gripe means.
I have a hard time understanding: people.
You know I like you when: I am quite indifferent towards you, lol
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: mom
Take my advice: read Chuck Palahniuk, it changes your life
The thing I want to buy: a new leader-looking jacket
If you visited the place I was born: I live there
I plan to visit: new jersey
If you spent the night at my house: we'd probably never sleep, we would talk all night :)
I’d stop my wedding if: i didnt feel pretty.
The world could do without: a few people >.<
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: nothing, I would rather die than do that
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: a hella lotta shots
Most recent thing someone else bought me: hum, candy
My favorite blonde is: Kitty
My favorite brunette is: Gigi
My favorite black hair is: sindy
My middle name is: I don't have one
In the morning I: am very moody
The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are: elephants
Last night I was: asleep
There’s this guy I know who: has a few cool tats
If I was an animal I’d be: a lion
A better name for me would be: I don't know, you tell me
Tomorrow I am: hanging with sum friends and saying hi to you :)
Tonight I am: sleeping like a baby
My birthday is: October 27th

q.

Start at the very beginning, what’s your name? 
Viacely, but people usually call me Via

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?  

Most jeans I wear are skinny.

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do? 
I would go around listening what people have to say about me, ha

Does the person you like, like you back? 
I hope so :)

What did you do last night? 
watch sum mtv.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies? 
of course

Are you your mum’s favorite child? 
No, I get along better with her, but she always preffers my brother.

Are you happy with the way things are going? 
you know..

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night? 
Not really.

Sleep on your back or stomach? 
side, in a ball

What were you doing before this survey? 
on the phone with sindy.

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? 
haha, yeah, I know what that means, yeah

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night? 
like an hour or so.

It’s Thursday night, where are you usually? 
prolly home.

Your Christmas list consists of? 
i don’t know yet.

What movie is in your DVD player? 
Hum, I think hang over is.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move? 
Toronto, Canada

What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? 
I slept over 5 hours in the afternoon. ?

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? 
Always

What’s going on tomorrow night? 
i have no clue.

Do you know a lot of people with the same phone as you?  

Many.

Is your hair curly or straight right now? 
wavy

What do you really think of Starbucks Coffee? 
sure.

Does anyone love you? 
what kind of question is that!

Want to be taller or shorter? 
I'd like to be a bit taller, but Idk, I'm okay with my height.

What are you listening to? 
mtv.

When was the last time you really laughed? 
earlier.

Do you listen to music every day? 
always.

Last song you heard? 
Jack Johnson- Do you remember

Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female? 
female

What’s the last thing you said out loud? 
I don't remember.

How was your day? 
boring.

Describe how you feel right now in three words: 
bored, tired, whatever

If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? 
something exciting to happen.

Has a girl sat on your bed before? 
yeah!

Plans for Saturday? 
i dont know

Who was the last person besides yourself to touch something on your face? 
Idk.

What was your dream about last night? 
I don't remember.

Do you have a reason to smile right now? 
I'm alive.

Where were you at 9 am this morning? 
school

Everything happens for a reason? 
I am not a believer.

Are you too forgiving? 
hmm, not really

Do you think people talk about you? 
people ALWAYS talk shit

What do you carry with you at all time? 
phone.

Do you and your parents get along? 
yeah, most of the time.

This time last year, were you single?
mhm.

Have you ever been searched by the cops? no.

Do you always wear your seat belt? 
always! and i always get everyone to put theres on.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate? 
I'm not sure they hate him, but our crews don't get along.

Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? 
yeah!!

Ever sang a whole song without missing any lyrics? 
yeah

Has someone close to you ever told you they were going to commit suicide because of you? 
no, thank god.

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year? 
change is inevitable.

Do you care if people talk badly about you? depends.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? 
it depends

Where were you at 10:17 pm last night and what were you doing? 
sitting in my bed, typing.

Other than this, what are you doing? 
mtv is on, msn.

Were you happy when you woke up today? 
sure.

Who did you last get into a big argument with? 
i cant remember, probably mom, no deff mom.

Last thing you ate? 
home made pizza.

What are you looking forward to in the next three months?  

sleeping, getting tattooed, reading a new book, idk.

Are you a morning person or a night person? 
night

Has anyone sang to you? 
lol, yeah (:

How often do you lose your voice? 

never really have!

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your under wear in the past 3 months? 
mhm, no boys tho.

Be honest, do you like people in general?
not like them, but don't dislike them either.

Does anybody hate you? 
i guess so, i dont hate anyone tho!

Is there something you’re looking forward to next month? 
sure.

Does it bother you when people get drunk? 
it depends, if they leave me alone as the one sober person, or do things that are too annoying.

Are you mad at someone right now? 
nah

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking? 
not often.

Will tomorrow be a good day? 
I hope.

Do you like hugs and kisses? 
:) who doesnt

What’s on your bed?

pillows, notebooks, make up, me...

Last person on your bed? 
wini, carol & lexi.

Mykonos

"I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all and that doesn’t mean there’s not gonna be hard days or difficult things to deal with, because there will be. But finding that person who does it for you & knowing that person loves you back, it just makes everything so much easier."

Fightless bird

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it(anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)

I fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)

I want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
 

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
 I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

e.e. cummings

IDGAF, really?

I am sitting in my bed, my pajamas are on, and it's really not late at all,

but I just got home from a shoot in which I portrayed a girl with cancer, you'll be able to check it out once it's finished,

but when I got home, I just felt like I needed a shower, so I got one :)

 I don't really have any idea of what to write about, but I just felt like writting.

Not to let someone know what I'm thinking, because I am not thinking of something specific atm.

And mostly because I know no one ever reads the things I post :)

but it's okay, I write because that's what I know how to get things out of my head.

I am supposed to be studying for this test, but ever since I was a child I wasn't that much into studying,

I figured I learned more easily by just listening and paying atention, I am better at remembering this things from the teacher's mouth or something.

Feeling tired and a little bored, and sitting in my bed makes it more tempting to just lay and take a nap,

and I am not that much into facebook today...

I realized I type a lot of I's.just saying!

Last night I was talking to my mom after watching Home & Healt, a show about really weird cases that should have end up in death, but didn't.

pretty cool, you should deffintly check that out, but anyway,

I was like talking a lot, my mom and I we talk about almost everything, I don't know she's pretty easy to talk to, I guess,

and mainly because she doesn't judge me.

Well, I was talking about this guy in one of my classes who I thought had something really attractive to him but I really don't know what that is, because, to be honest and not mean, I don't think he's that good looking, or smart, or interesting, I don't even know why I like him, and that frustrates me, because I feel that my hormons like him better than my brain, haha.

Well, I remembered he was in high school with my brother (go figure!) so we came up with a plan to get my brother's year book just to look at pictures of him, so my mom could check him out, or something, lol.

Well when we finally found him my mom was like 'FUCK', for real!

she said the word out loud, and gave me this disapointing look, but when she realized what she had done, she just said 'not everyone has the same taste, you know?' but it was al ready too late,

I don't know why, but I really give a big fuck for what she thinks...

and now I'm even more confused, because I feel like I really don't like him,

but I'm not sure if I don't like him, or if I don't think I like him, because she doesn't like him.

what to do, huh?