100.

• Another 100 facts about myself to show how bored I am.
• 
  1) Self harmed?
  Only for those few seconds of pleasure right when you're doing it.
• 2) Got into a real fight?
  when I was like 7 or something, I won.
• 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
  Never gotten that bad.
• 4) Tried to commit suicide?
  nope.
• 5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt?
  of course.
• 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
  Not in one, nope.
• 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
  mhhm
• 8) Accused someone of using you?
  naaah, you can only be used if you want to.
• 9) Shoplifted?
  yes, I stole some Pokemon stickers by pasting them on my tummy when I was younger. 
• 10) Gotten drunk/high?
  never been drunk, just a bit tipsy.
• 11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing?
  noo! but could have, brand new was in AC on new year's eve, I was in NYC :S
• 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
  always.
• (Right now) Are you:
• 13) Suicidal? nope
• 14) Bored? why else would I be doing this?
• 15) Avoiding someone? kinda.
• 16) Avoiding some task? naah, not right now.
• 17) Depressed? maybe just a bit.
• 18) Crying? nope.
• 19) Annoyed with a friend? MHHHM! the bitch stole my look. gaaah
• 20) Worried and confused about something important to you? Yes!!
• Do you:
• 21) Get depressed easily? very.
• 22) Get jealous/envious easily? yeah, but I'm extremely good at hiding it.
• 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? I'm watching south park, and for now it's good enough
• 24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? I think I've already fucked up too bad, don't know how to fix things.
• 25) Try hard in all your classes at school? not in all of them, a few I just don't give a fuck for.
• 26) Go out drinking? no one I feel like doing it with.
• 27) Smoke cigarettes? yes, maybe.
• 28) Smoke weed? sure.
• 29) Do any hard drugs? no.
• 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? Because I'm not really into fucking myself over that bad.
• 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? I'm a peaceful atheist, it's by logic that I work, not beliefs. Don't have anything against anyone who does, it's a free world.
• 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
  naah, I avoid people I care about because i feel they will only hurt me.
• 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
  in some ways, yeah. It does gives you some kind of power, control.
• 34) Believe people deserve second chances?
  fuck numbers, do what you feel like doing.
• 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? (ignoring the religious relation to that saying)
  Not really, it does depends.
• 36) Think things will get better?
  I hope so.
• 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
  no...
• 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
  I just judge people by how stupid they are.
• Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
• 39) Long hair OR short hair? short.
• 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? smile.
• 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? -.
• 42) Shy OR open? someone who is shy to others but very open around me.
• 43) Eyes OR body? Eyes.
• 44) Religious OR non-religious? non religious
• 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? caring, obv.
• 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? non-straight edge
• 47) Piercings OR no piercings? piercings
• 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? tattoos, big turn on.
• 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? stay at home.
• 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? friends.
• Would you:
• 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? naaah
• 52) Smoke weed? mhm
• 53) Smoke cigarettes? mhm
• 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? naah
• 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? I don't know.
• 56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? naaah
• 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? naah.
• 58) Join a band as a part time activity? sure.
• 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? depends.
• 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? sure.
• 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? maybe, if it was easier, lol.
• 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? no... maybe, dunno
• 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? haha sure.
• 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? everyone is free to have their own opinions.
• 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people?
  my friends are a lot like that, lol
• 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
  naah
• 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems?
  sure.
• 68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes?
  naah, I love food, that's the reason I'm so fucking fat.
• 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you?
  sure, to suck out all my fat.
• 70) Sleep naked?
  next to someone, sure.
• You can only choose one:
• 71) Black or Orange? black
• 72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? metalcore
• 73) Cellphone or Computer? computer
• 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? coke
• 75) Tumblr OR Friends? tumblr, lol I'm so lame.
• 76) Apple OR PC? I have a PC.
• 77) TV Shows OR Movies? Movies
• 78) Old bands OR new Bands? old
• 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? alternative
• 80) Reading OR Listening to music? music
• 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. coke, It's less sweeter.
• 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? change.
• 83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? clean vocal bridge
• 84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. no one.
• 85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. -.
• 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? documentary
• 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? Europe
• 88) Shoes OR Shirts? shoes
• 89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? -.
• 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. B. It's a better way to get a better job, and anyway in a very weird way i love learning.
• Almost over:
• 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. yeh,
• 92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family?
  no, I love talking about my friends.
• 93) Do you want to travel when you are older?
  I want to travel NOW.
• 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
  maybe.
• 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
  yes.
• 96) Rather be the opposite gender?
  naah.
• 97) What will you name your son/daughter?
  maybe Camille, or something, don't know.
• 98) Do you get harassed more than most people do?
  naah
• 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
  I fucking hate: 30 seconds to mars + the rasmus + tokio hotel,
  because they fucking suck.
• 100) What makes you a bad person in your mind?
  when you actually don't give a fuck about anyone but yourself, and you don't even care to pretend.

Lullaby

“Experts in ancient Greek culture say that people back then didn’t see their thoughts as belonging to them. When ancient Greeks had a thought, it occurred to them as a god or goddess giving an order. Apollo was telling them to be brave. Athena was telling them to fall in love.”

—	Chuck Palahniuk, Lullaby

Despair in the departure lounge

1. Sexual orientation.
I'm attracted to males, so I guess that makes me straight.

2. What I’m really bad at:
relationships with people.

3. The one person whose arms I’d like to be in:
weirdly enough, this past couple of days I've been really thinking about this guy I've liked for the past year or so.

4. My best first date:
I don't think I have actually been on a date, but then again, I'm not the kind of girl that dates, I rather get to know a person as a friend first.

5. A description of my self-esteem:
it's pretty swell.

6. Who my best friends are:
people I go to school with, 

7. My favorite book:
I probably just couldn't pick one, the velveteen rabbit, any written by Chuck Palahniuk and the Harry Potter series

8. Biggest turn-offs:
when boys act like jerks to other girls or people in general.

9. A description of my best friend:
she's not like me at all.

10. My favorite animal:

White tiger

11. Someone I miss:
in a weird way, Gerry

12. The reason behind my last breakup:
n/a

13. What I did yesterday:
I went to Mike's birthday party.

14. What my greatest achievement is:
I have no clue.

15. A description of the person I dislike most:
It's not that I dislike her, 'cause she's my friend, but it's very very very annoying that she just cut her hair like mine.

16. My 5 favorite songs right now:
Ingrid Michaelson's cover of Somebody that I used to know
Black swan - Thom Yorke
The Chills - Peter Bjorne & John
VCR - The XX
Last Nite - The Strokes
*based on my pandora playlist*

17. How my last kiss went down.
It actually kinda sucked, tbh. I liked this guy since I was 12 years old and I finally got my chance to be with him, and in some weird way he wasn't who I wanted to be with, and he didn't felt right... and neither did the kiss.

18. What I find attractive in the preferred sex.
a bad-ass attitude.

19. All of the pets I’ve ever had.
ugh, too long.

20. Favorite flavor of ice cream.

vanilla + oreo

21. The one place I want to be right now.
anywhere but here, I do feel like running away

22. The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
calling me names based on my weight.

23. Where I have lived before.
Lawrence, MA. (about 20 mins. from Boston)
New York City

24. I’ll love you if…
you make me an awesome playlist.

25. What are my future plans?
don't really think I have any.

26. An internal conflict I have with myself.

Lately I've been very depressed, I feel trapped.

27. What I’m doing tomorrow.
Going to school in the evening, and maybe earlier dying my hair again.

28. What I want to be when I get older.
happy?

29. Most embarrassing moment.
I can't think of any right now.

30. Two of my insecurities.
Many of my physical features
I deeply believe nobody really likes me.

31. What I would do if I won the lottery.
I'd buy the awesomest car I could afford.

32. A description of the boy or girl I like.
I don't like the word like (lol) because it implies a much deeper feeling to me,
a deeper connection and knowledge of the person whom you believe you're in likes with.
but he kinda have a nice heart, he's a bit of a dick on first look, but he seems to be much more than that. he's really nice and sweet.

33. What I love most about myself.
That people can not tell I have no confidence whatsoever.

34. My biggest pet peeves.
n/a

35. What bands I’ve seen live.
I would be very very ashamed if I told you this.

36. How many kids I want in the future.
I'm not sure, maybe two boys?

37. My idea of a perfect date.
just a good movie, an awesome conversation and a really sweet good night kiss.

38. What I’m really good at.
Apparently analyzing people.

39. Most traumatic experience.
Car crash.

40. Where I would like to live.
New York City, or any other big city in the world.
Maybe London <3

41. The nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me.
I love it when people say I'm interesting in a very mysterious way, never got why tho.

42. Do I like where I am now?
It's my room, it's messy.

43. My relationship with my sibling(s).
I don't like him at all. But that's a secret I'm only sharing with you.

44. All the pets I’ve ever had.
already asked!

45. What I can hear right now.
Mr. Nice Guy by The Kooks
and my folks watching tv on the back

46. My biggest worry currently.
sfsfwqed 

47. Something I’ve wished for repeatedly.
for love? 

48. My relationship with my parents.
they're okay

49. Something I should have said a long time ago.
I want you too, never got the chance nor the balls to do it.

50. What my last text message says.
Are you awake?
it was at 1:25 am

51. What I hate most about myself.
how a fucking mess I am.

52. Biggest turn-ons.
a bad-ass attitude,

eye sex.

when they're pretty forward and make me nervous.

lip biting.
tattoos
some piercings
nudity, etc.

53. What words upset me the most.
Any kind of racist/macho comment.

54. What I hate/hated the most about school.
I did not hate school, I pretty much miss it.