there is a lot I'd like to say to you.
A lot I'd like to admit through lost kisses and interwined limbs.
whispers lingering on my skin just begging to be let go of.
A lot of kisses hanging on my lips (patiently)
some things I'd like to scream at you, out of anger, loneliness.
out of everything that's happened, or hasn't happened.
there are a lot of secrets I'd like to share with you.
secrets late at night, through the dark, inbetween stars and yawns and eyelashes.
there is so much.

1. Hi I'm
2. I am terrified of
3. I like
4. I have
5. I’m a
6. I have an awful habit of
7. I live
8. I’m a sucker for
9. I’m going
10. I have
11. I post pictures of

1. Hi I’m viacely
2. I am terrified of roaches

3. I like mind night conversations

4. I have hazel eyes
5. I’m am addict to my iPod

6. I have an awful habit of biting the inside of my mouth

7. I live in a small city

8. I’m a sucker for cute boys with acoustic guitars

9. I’m going to move to Europe someday

10. I have an obsession with brand new

11. I post pictures of things I find attractive or beautiful

Confessions of a philophobiac

       I’m afraid to like you,

      Because I may fall in love,

      I’m afraid to fall in love,

      Because I may get hurt,

      I’m afraid to get hurt,

      Because of the pain,

      I’m afraid of the pain,

      Because of the scars,

      I’m afraid of the scars,

      Because they may bleed,

      I’m afraid of the blood,

      Because I may die,

      I’m afraid to die,

      Because I may survive,

      I’m afraid to survive,

      Because I may let you in,

      And the cycle starts all over again.

-Ashlie Nicholle Haines

THE QUIET THINGS THAT NO ONE EVER KNOWS

 this is me, earlier today. w/e.

the words could not leave my fingertips fast enough.

the only way I know of letting things out is by writting, I guess I'm good with words or something,

and that line from a fall out boy song comes to mind, and I'm distracted, and it seems like my thoughts run too fast for my fingertips to catch up with, and tears run and I don't know why I'm crying.

I guess I do, but I don't know how or from where.

there's a lot of ands in this post or however you want to call it,

fucking msn screen is shinning, and they don't know it but they're not who I want to talk to,

and I can't talk to you, you, you, you, you, you

always you, huh?

you're never around when you're supposed to, you're never around when I want you,

and I've been around for days now, and you, you you you you never come back, not even to see if I'm waiting.

And tonight's the night I give up, and I'm crying, I guess it makes me sad

and tonight's the night I promised myself I wouldn't speak of you, or think of you (that I can't help) or check your facebook page... tonight's the night it ends for me.

I'm done sitting around and waiting for shit to happen, but I don't know how to make them happen.

I haven't done one of this in a while

Have you seen the last person you texted naked? 
I think that was Sophie, so no

Will tomorrow be better than today?
I hope so, today was pretty good tho.

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails? 
lower lip

What is your current mood? 
I'm tired, a bit

Would you ever get a tattoo? 
I have one in the back of my neck, and I want to get more

What are you listening to? 
Project Runway is on tv now

Do you know anyone that smokes pot? 
lol, a whole bunch of people I know do

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and not get annoyed?
I guess so, I dunno

What color shirt are you wearing? 
dark blue with some gray

What’s something that upset you today? 
traffic in general

Your current relationship status? 
Single

Do you get along with girls? Yeah, I have a lot of friends who are girls, I went to an all-girls school

Do your parents allow you to date? 
I don't think they get to have a say in that


When was the last time you cleaned your room? 
Like past week or so

Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
Sindy on the phone

How is the weather right now? 
coldish

What do you always take with you? 
money, phone, make up

Do you regret anything you did today? 
Nope

Have you ever had a serious conversation with your mum? 
all the time

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I guess so

What is something you really want right now? 
dfadfqthisboyandyeah

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? 
Oh yeah, she said I hacked her fb page and a lot of shit, which I didn't. And we didn't spoke for months, when she finally found out who did it, she didn't apologized just tried to talk to me like nothing happend.

What do you think about the person you hate most? 
I don't think I hate anyone, hating is such a waste of time, I do think I dislike some people

What is the last thing you used your own money for? 
um, clothes

Can you tell when something bad is going to happen? 
Sometimes, I hate that feeling of dread you get in your stomach

Would you rather have long or short hair? 
I want it to be longer right now

Can you write with both hands? 
somewhat

Has someone of the opposite sex told you they loved you and meant it? 
I don't know

How’s your heart lately?uneasy

Does anyone hate you?
Probably

How did you get your last bruise?I don't remember

Who is in your house right now? 
mom & my brother

Do you want to have children? 
One day  in the future

What are you doing tomorrow? 
I have no idea

Who’s the first “D” in your contacts? 
David

Do you have a reason to smile right now? 
I guess so

Who was the last person to text you? 
Sophie

What did it say?
an inside joke

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with? 
Um either Brett or Jk

What are you wearing on your feet? 
docks

Do you think that the person you like feels the exact same way you do? 
I do think he likes me, just I don't know how much

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? 
Kensie

How long does it take for you to shower?15 minutes or so

Is the last person you hugged older? 
yup

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately? 
traffic and people in general

Last night, did you fall asleep smiling? 
I don't think so, lol

Are you afraid of change? 
as any other human been

Who woke you up? 
my alarm clock

What time did you wake up this morning? 6:45 am, I had breakfast with some friends (:

"A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever ? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life."