Stardust

Why would you do that? -Her voice broke,

she was demanding an answer from me,

tears sundenly caught her eyes,

I never meant to hurt her this much,

I didn't know I had the power to do it.

I felt how my eyes got blurry and a warm tear running down my face,

I held myself together,

I was taught not to show weakness.

I couldn't hold her gaze much longer,

it broke my heart to see the cracks in her face that had been caused by me.

I never meant to hurt her,

I wish I could take it back.

And the whole reason for my existance was there, in front of me,

sitting in a chair facing my hospital bed,

and this bandages were hiding the stardust that will forever be with me,

it was scarlet red, I remembered. 

Her gaze was locked in my face,

I could feel it,

still waiting for my reply,

I couldn't face her,

I never meant to hurt her.

I couldn't answer,

I didn't want to,

nor did I know what to say.

I couldn't hurt her anymore than I al ready had.

If I told her exactly what I felt,

who I was,

would she still love me?