secret.

I know I haven't post much of me lately, I mean, not things that I've written, but lately I just don't know what to write anymore. I am scarred of my thoughts and my feelings ashame me.

Lately, really loud hardcore music is the only thing that can keep my thoughts from catching up to me, that can tune the world out, and keep my feelings shut.

But I think I'm a bit better now, and I'm not in love with the world, but I'm at peace with it.

And that's okay, for now.

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Here are some thought that been running around my head for the past few days, I've been thinking of sweet things the perfect boy could do :)

it's okay to dream, right?

Well here is the list:

-he'd show up out of nowhere at random places at randome times just to see me 

-he'd call me at 3am just to ask what I'm doing

-Would burn me mix cds with music he's currently into

-would call just to say "hey, I miss you" and hung up

-would kiss my forehead for no aparent reason

-would play/sing songs to me :)

-would send random texts with random things, ha

-would come over just to watch movies

-would look for french movies to watch with me

-we'd stay in bed all day

-would hug me when I'm cold

I don't know, that's it for now... I guess